Time

We are doing well. Some days it feels difficult some days we know everything is just right. It is a day to day thing. In some ways I feel like I have it easier than David. I have been networking, reaching out, meeting new folk and building a support system. David has been settling into his new job.
On other days I fall apart. I forget to have faith that THE correct job for me will come through. On these days the old habit of beating myself up comes easily. I had one of those on Monday. Then I stepped back and began taking care of myself. A walk outdoors, coffee with my friends Harry and Patty. Self care.
We both knew this first year would be the toughest and it is.
But driving home the clouds were huge, the light great. When we got out the the car the light on the Aspens and Ponderosa Pines were spectacular. We stood looking at our home, the light, the trees and knew everything was OK. I verbalized that this community is just what we wanted. We have never had community like this and it really is supportive, open and amazing.
We know we made the right choice. No matter how much every now and again, the childhood voice creeps into our minds saying, "I want to go home." The feeling of knowing a place is gained only with time and three months isn't enough to obtain that feeling.